We live in a world of depression.

Not much of this is going to make sense at all but my point is, just think before you speak...
I've been meaning to write about this for ages, I can just never think of the right words.  Recently there's been a lot of media coverage on Amanda Todd, a girl who was supposedly led to make a couple of mistakes in her life, which then caused her to become bullied and eventually push her over the edge and commit suicide.
Some people are adamant she did it for attention, or that she deserved the bullying because she acted like a "Whore". Put yourself in her shoes... No matter what she did or said, there was always going to be someone making things worse for her or never letting it go. She knew no matter what she said non of this would ever go away. She called out for help and got the exact opposite in return.
Some people will say it's not bullying, that she got what apparently deserved. But it is bullying, not everyone can physically cope with name calling, talking behind backs and dirty looks, I know, I've been there almost all my life. People go on sooo much about everyone deserving a second chance, but then go back on themselves and tear someone to shreds over something that has nothing to do with them.
Even if you simply tell someone they're fat or stupid, that comment can stay with them for a very long time, and every time it's said the wall of confidence they have slowly gets broken down, word by word, action by action.
So many people from such a young generation are severely depressed these days, not just from bullying, nothing at all could have happened for depression to occur, and half the time, it's almost unrecognisable!
I think the worse thing about the whole situation is it's not taken seriously. You can't be depressed if you have a goof life and friends, only if you're an "emo" or "goth". I can not fathom my hatred for people who call on suicide or even suffering with depression as stupid or attention seeking. If it is attention seeking, does it not concern you that their may be a reasoning behind it? What if this "attention seeker" is having problems at home, and acts out because of it, or just does it because they feel lonely and need a little love? We are all amazingly talented at just assuming what we want to assume, because it's too much effort to look into it.
I'm writing about this because I know what it feels like to not want to be here, to feel lonely and as if you never want to face the world again.
When people see me and think of who I am, the normal response I get when I ask is " She's always happy and enthusiastic" well the truth is, I'm not. There are so many others out there who are expected to deal with day to day life and simply can't, they have no help and support, no one to turn to, no one that truly understands them or how they feel, mainly because they don't know themselves.
The reason behind all this is because the past week, I've heard and seen so many comments and thoughts on suicide, and all of them I came across had to be the most ignorant things I've ever heard. I'm not judging the people who generally don't understand, rather than the ones who choose not to because they think they know everything about anything.
Everybody has a story that's impossible to be understood by others, that story could be their life. Don't judge and hate, for your sake and theirs.
Maybe next time when you have a comment, research into what you're saying, because you have no idea how much it can affect someone.

 

25 is a pretty decent number.

I'm really bored and I haven't blogged in forever!
So I thought I'd " interest" you all with 25 strange things you may not know about me :D
1. I don't like being in lifts with other people, it creeps me out.
2. Before I go to sleep, all the doors in the house must be shut.
3. I don't like the dark, I'm not terrified though *cough*
4. If there is one measly fly around me, I feel like I'm covered in insects and they're crawling all over me.
5. I'm ticklish like everywhere, but some times, I'm not ticklish at all?
6. Unless I have my mind set on sharing food, I don't like people taking food off my plate, it irritates me greatly.
7.I don't like things to be messy, tidying is like a stress relief for me.
8. I have to sleep on the right hand side of a double bed, or if I'm sleeping out, on the right side of the person I'm next too, otherwise I have trouble sleeping.
9. I like the fact that I'm smaller than most people, it makes me feel cute :P
10. No one touches my fringe. Ever. It's mine and is only to be caressed by me.
11. I can't look into my eyes through a mirror, like fully stare at my self, it creeps me out!
12. I genuinely think I'm hilarious even though I know I'm not. I laugh at my own jokes, that's all that matters! :P
13. I don't like people breathing on me, makes me cringe!
14.I have two rabbits.... I'm allergic to rabbits.
15.I hate pink. But have many items of that colour...
16. I am a MASSIVE child. Teddies everywhere. I could sit and watch disney channel all day.
17.When I was little, my mum had a necklace with a tiny gold clam shell on the end that could open. I used to open it, sing into it and pretend I was Ariel from the little mermaid having my voice taken away from me.
18. I love it when people smell nice. Makes me happy inside.
19. I don't like it when people are really really hairy, makes me think they're unclean..
20. I can't eat more than half a 5 piece bar of chocolate at once, it makes me feel sick.
21. I really hate quite a few music artists of today, but I still put some of their music on my Ipod.
22. I have the attention span of a cat.
23. I don't mind being sick, as in throwing up. It doesn't phase me at all, probably because I'm used to it by now though....
24. One time, I had a turkey and chocolate spread sandwich and it tasted good.
25. I like to write pointless blogs that not many are interested in as it cures my boredom :D

If the definition of beauty gets any thinner, no one will fit.

I am a fan of the "dreaded" show " Geordie shore ". I know, I'm ashamed ahaha. I recently liked their page on facebook and saw on my news feed that they had uploaded individual photos from series three "Chaos in Cancun".
These photo's were of the cast by them self. As always you're going to get people who think someone's amazing beautiful and those who think the same person should put a paper bag over their head. Fair enough. Everyone is entitled to an opinion. What really got to me is what people were actually saying.
Vicky Pattison is a pretty looking girl, have a look for yourself...

These were the only un-photoshopped photos I could find of her. Getting back to the point! The people commenting on the airbrushed, thinned out photos of her were calling her fat! I mean in the photo on the right hand side, she must be what a size twelve or ten?
What I see there is a normal sized curvy girl. Not a girl who is "fat" in anyway shape or form. I'm that size, and yes sometimes I wish I was thinner, we all do. But I'm still proud to be the size I am, simply for the fact that I wouldn't be able to put myself through obsessing over my size, weighing myself everyday and counting the calories as I eat. It's society and people that have nothing else to do but label others, that lower our self esteem and make us the wreck we are today. Before any of my readers start having a go at me like they did last time, let me just point out that I am NOT in anyway shape or form aiming this at the people who can't help their size or who have weight issues due to family/life problems. This is about the magazines and TV shows, that portrays images of all these "thin and beautiful" people who are nothing more than airbrushed images. They don't look like that in real life. People now think girls are meant to look like that to look good, people think it's okay to label others as fat or ugly because they're not a size 8 and below.
I was watching a Britain's next top model this morning for some unknown reason....
They were eliminating 1 model from the competition. During the judging before the decision was made, one of the models was told she needed to lose weight. Her collar bone was already showing through like a miniature soup bowl and her legs looked like they could snap at any moment....
Pretty sure the top of my legs touch when I stand with them together, no metre gap between them...

                   Is this really attractive on girls who force them self to become that way?... :/
Models are meant to these beautiful, graceful people who advertise clothing, perfume, make up, hair or whatever not calorie obsessed girls or boys who push the image out there that being unhealthily thin is okay.
Kate Moss is a primary bad example to girls everywhere. She produced t-shirts with the slogan on " Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels." It really says it all doesn't it?!
Stuff like this...

causes actions like these....

Personally I think those who wish for the bone-thin look should take a page from marilyn monroe's book...

Hope you enjoyed :)

7 months a little too late.

So as many of you may know, I've been really ill, been through a lot blah blah. Anyway, I've been suffering with depression since November 2011, although I wouldn't admit it too my self. I've lost a lot of weight, although may not be noticeable and quite a few friends as well. I went to the doctors and got referred to the glen acre house, basically a therapy place for people like me, but they mainly focus on young children, even though they deal with people up to the age of 18.
Once I'd been referred, I got a letter through with a behavioural questionnaire, and a message saying I'd been put on a waiting list. This questionnaire consisted of Q's such as; "Does you child share her playtime possessions with other children?"
I couldn't help but laugh. So I decided to battle this shiz on my own. Well, my mum too, and maybe 1 or 2 friends if that.... (yaaaay)
Getting to the point. I got a letter through a day ago, 7 months after this all started, or at least started to have a big impact on my life, so I ripped it up and threw it away. If I got referred in the first place, it must have been bad, so why did it take 7 months? Ridiculous.
The main point of this blog is to say a big FUCK YOU to depression, and an even bigger FY to glen acre house, I'm beating this shiz on my own, I don't need your help, especially if you're not there when I could have used it.
Yes I still have my off days, maybe even off weeks. But I'm a lot stronger than I thought.
haaaaapppy happy happy.
:)

10 easy steps on how to win a guys heart.

Us girls have at least once, been in the situation where we like a guy, but have no idea how to make him like us back. So here's a few tips.

1. After your first date with this guy, make sure you have his number. Just ask him straight up, then text him when you get home, and every hour after that to make sure he knows your thinking about him. If he doesn't reply, it's because he's expecting you to text him even more than that, so switch to once every ten minutes.

2. If you've managed to get to day 3/4 with your prince charming, tell him you love him, and start talking about forever. Gertrude and Patrice, that's what you're going to name your kids. Oh yeah, and your wedding day is on the 8th of August 2012. ( presuming you win the key to his heart before that, if not, just wait a couple of months)

3. Boss him around and accuse him of things! Tell him he isn't allowed to do something, then do it your self! Be extra neat and clean, then when he least expects it....BAM, massive belch in his face.

4. Flirt with his friends and tell him how good looking they are, guys LOVE this. Oh yeah, and make sure he buys you at least one gift a day. Exclaim that you love his muscles and that they remind you of butterflies.

5. One things guys cant stand is a girl being easy.....to figure out. So make him think and twist his words! If he tells you he thinks you look better in that dress in your closet to the one you've got on, assume he's calling you fat and ugly and burst out into tears! 

6. Make him watch the worst chick flick you've ever seen. And then ask him why he's not like the guy in the film! I mean all you ever wanted was someone perfect. But then tell him you love him, and belch in his face again.

7.Constantly check his phone to see who's he's been in contact with! This is a sure thing to make him yours! Ask him if you're not good enough for him and throw a banana in his face! Guy's love banana's ( it's a male thing).

8.Make sure you spend plenty of time with his parents and find out all his embarrassing stories, then when you've got them, tell all his friends! This will make him think that you're interested in his life and want to get to know his friends better, he will then tell you he loves you and will buy you anything you want.

9Expect him to run around after you and complain that he doesn't love you if he doesn't do the things you want! Nothing makes a girl more adorable! Pretend that you're really dumb for attention.

Boy - " Want some parmesan  on your pasta babe?"

Girl - " No thanks, I don't like potatoes..."

nothing could be sexier.

10. If all else fail, beat him senseless with a roll of cellotape  until he's unconscious, throw him in the back of your van and drive away with him. Kidnapping is the best thing for theses situations, he is SURE to be yours forever then. :D

I hope this guide was useful for you girls out there looking for Mr. Right!

:) 

Like my picture so I can live.

Recently on facebook I've seen several different photos of a seriously ill grandmother, starving children, children with cancer and so on. All of these photo's have a heading of " Like if you're against cancer" or "like if you want my grandma to live!"... and my all time favourite " Like if you care about this starving child"
of course people care!
Personally I refuse to like any of them as I think it's sick. Sick and wrong.
The majority of the photos are either disturbing or upsetting. Liking a photo of a skeletal child isn't going to help. If you really want to make a difference, then donate to a charity, raise money or even sponsor a child!
These people posting the photo's don't care about the issue, or care that you may possibly care, they just know people want to come across as nice and will like their photo.
I mean what would you rather do? Sit and watch as you "popularity" goes up? Or actually attempt to do something about the issues you've raised, and of course care so much about.
Why someone would want to post a picture of their gran, or any family member on their deathbed on facebooks for likes I don't know. Nature will run it's course, what's meant to be will be, trust me if stuff like that could save people, I'd have sent a photo of my grandma around the world and back.
Grow up and get real.

Unseen talents?

My friend alice's website for nail art!
Many people have different talents, some more noticeable than others. Well there's this girl I know called Alice who does AMAZING nail art. No she hasn't asked me to do this, but I feel its necessary as she deserves to be seen! Not much of a blog I know but why not have a look at the site?
She can paint your nails for a certain amount ( I think) or she does fake nail sets to give to you, if you use correct nail varnish remover ( which can get rid of nail glue ) you can re-use them over and over again.
Also by reading this blog, it means you now have to click on the link and b r o w s e! Or I will eat you.
OMNOMNOM THE END.
Not quite... heres a taster...

Plenty more where that came from if you click on the link!
http://www.facebook.com/pages/One-Nail-To-Rule-Them-All/264927466912275