Not much of this is going to make sense at all but my point is, just think before you speak...
I've been meaning to write about this for ages, I can just never think of the right words. Recently there's been a lot of media coverage on Amanda Todd, a girl who was supposedly led to make a couple of mistakes in her life, which then caused her to become bullied and eventually push her over the edge and commit suicide.
Some people are adamant she did it for attention, or that she deserved the bullying because she acted like a "Whore". Put yourself in her shoes... No matter what she did or said, there was always going to be someone making things worse for her or never letting it go. She knew no matter what she said non of this would ever go away. She called out for help and got the exact opposite in return.
Some people will say it's not bullying, that she got what apparently deserved. But it is bullying, not everyone can physically cope with name calling, talking behind backs and dirty looks, I know, I've been there almost all my life. People go on sooo much about everyone deserving a second chance, but then go back on themselves and tear someone to shreds over something that has nothing to do with them.
Even if you simply tell someone they're fat or stupid, that comment can stay with them for a very long time, and every time it's said the wall of confidence they have slowly gets broken down, word by word, action by action.
So many people from such a young generation are severely depressed these days, not just from bullying, nothing at all could have happened for depression to occur, and half the time, it's almost unrecognisable!
I think the worse thing about the whole situation is it's not taken seriously. You can't be depressed if you have a goof life and friends, only if you're an "emo" or "goth". I can not fathom my hatred for people who call on suicide or even suffering with depression as stupid or attention seeking. If it is attention seeking, does it not concern you that their may be a reasoning behind it? What if this "attention seeker" is having problems at home, and acts out because of it, or just does it because they feel lonely and need a little love? We are all amazingly talented at just assuming what we want to assume, because it's too much effort to look into it.
I'm writing about this because I know what it feels like to not want to be here, to feel lonely and as if you never want to face the world again.
When people see me and think of who I am, the normal response I get when I ask is " She's always happy and enthusiastic" well the truth is, I'm not. There are so many others out there who are expected to deal with day to day life and simply can't, they have no help and support, no one to turn to, no one that truly understands them or how they feel, mainly because they don't know themselves.
The reason behind all this is because the past week, I've heard and seen so many comments and thoughts on suicide, and all of them I came across had to be the most ignorant things I've ever heard. I'm not judging the people who generally don't understand, rather than the ones who choose not to because they think they know everything about anything.
Everybody has a story that's impossible to be understood by others, that story could be their life. Don't judge and hate, for your sake and theirs.
Maybe next time when you have a comment, research into what you're saying, because you have no idea how much it can affect someone.
